I haven't updated in ages. There's not much to say really. Axl left, taking Bill with him. Now he's back and there's no sign of Bill. Izzy's a girl now, but it seems to suit her so much more. FOr the most part, she seems happier.

Bill convinced me to call her. I hadn't spoken to her in months. She had no idea that i was even in a mental institution or that i was married . She wasn't happy. But she's looking forward to meeting bill. I can't wait. She'll love him. And Bill is gonna bake cookies for her.

So Tommy and sid have left. Don't know where they went, and i don't care. They didn't even say goodbye. Would it have killed them to call over and say goodbye? They were two of my closest friends. But obviously, i didn't mean as much to them. So fuck them, i've still got bill. I'll miss tommy the most. *sigh* These pills i'm on don't work either. I was always under the impression that their purpose was to make me feel somewhat sane. Oh well...at least i have bill. I love him. And Axl could be gone. : )

Yeah, i'm dropping sid vicious. I haven't used him in ages, no stories for him, he's run outta steam.

We did it! Bill and i got married today. We got married on that small beach beside the hospital. It was just the two of us, a nurse and the registrar. It wasn't without drama. Axl made an appearance. Tried to stop it, but i got rid of him. Now we're married and there's nothing Axl can do. I've never been happier.

I love you so much. I still can't believe you said yes. You've made me so so happy.

Just a quick note to say i love you. You make me feel really happy and you give me a reason to wake up every day

Told you i'd show you what a boyfriend is.
They buy presents for the person they love. Why don't you come find me later. I have a suprise for you Axl.

I really miss you.
Do you remember the time i broke into iso to see you? Or what about the time i did that thing to your toes?

I went out to the garden for an early morning walk and noticed someone tried to burn down that great big ash tree. It's all charred and burned and broken. Just wondering who did it, thats all.

Axl's gonna live. He's not awake yet but he's going to be okay. He's improving. It's brilliant. I'm so happy.

I have never been so tired! I honestly don't think i've slept since Axl ran away with Izzy. Now he's back, but he's in a coma. I spent the entire night by his bed and most of the day running back and forth between Axl's bedside and our pets, who also need attention. I hope he wakes up. I really do... I need him.

Doesn't the internet rock? My christmas shopping is nearly done. I've got tommy and Izzy sorted. Just need to get stuff for Axl, sid, duff, who else? Is there anyone else who'd deserve a present?
I decorated our room. We have a small tree. Its really cool.

I know you hate me and i know you can't understand why i've done what i've done, but you should know how bad i feel. I hate myself a thousand times more than you ever could and i sometimes think maybe i should just get Axl's rope and end it all. Maybe if i didn't have you and Axl to look after, i would. I just hope that someday maybe you can understand. I miss your friendship.

I'm seriously getting very very worried about Axl and Izzy now. Axl is my boyfriend, Izzy is my best friend. Axl isn't in good health. He has broken ribs, yesterday in the bedroom, he could barely breath without pain. He could barely move, what if something has happened to him? Izzy wouldn't know what to do. Especially if Axl has him chained up. Oh god, what if something happened Axl and Izzy is chained up and can't get help?
I wish he'd come back. I'm so fucking worried.
If anyone knows ANYTHING, please help out.

Come back i miss you. We talked about this happening. I told you what i'd do. Besides your not well. You have broken ribs.

Its not as bad as it seems. This way everyone gets what they want. We get a pet, Axl gets Izzy and Izzy gets to be with Axl and so do i because Izzy is a pet.
It's not like we're treating him badly. He gets whatever food he wants, i got him his own little bed today at the foot of our bed. He's happy.

I have something to tell you and damn it you'd better pay attention. I have never been in love before. But now i am. With you. Sometimes that makes me do crazy things like beg and plead and cry. But i'm telling you here and now that i love you. Okay? Completely and wholly. I know you don't want me so i'm not gonna bother you again. But you know where i am if you do. The ball's in your court Axl...

My aim is down. I'll be back later

I've never read a book before i came here. I could only speak basic english. Now i'm reading shit like Shakespeare, emily bronte, etc. My vocab has changed dramatically. I'm using words like hypothetically, critical, fabulous, etc. I've changed so much.